My blog has been quiet for two weeks. I took that time to step away from all the various social media outlets. My mental and emotional health were at a crossroads, and I needed to step back to gain perspective.
For several months, I have been experiencing a myriad of strange and cumbersome symptoms.
- Extreme fatigue and a desire to sleep ALL THE TIME!
- A huge increase in appetite and a major weight gain in spite of increased workouts.
- Intense emotional reactions to stress
- Increased sensitivity (think crying at commercials)
- A feeling of being weighed down, paralyzed, or leaden
The breaking point came when I locked myself in the office bathroom to cry. I realized that I was not behaving in a normal manner and that my attempts to handle things on my own were NOT working. I realized that it was time to share my secret with the world. I suffer from atypical depression.
I was first diagnosed with atypical depression during my treatment for bulimia. Atypical depression is the most common form of depression – marked by the symptoms above – but improves when a person experiences positive life changes. For me, I have always been able to use exercise to manage my depression. . However, over the last 6 months, things have gotten worse. I finally realized that I was not fully living life – rather I was going thru the motions. So I talked to my doctor and we began medication therapy. Four weeks in and I am starting to notice improvements – I finally feel like me again.
In addition to the medication, I make a few other changes that I believe will support my continued improvement. The biggest of these is a career change. While I love the company that I currently work for, the job that I am doing is not something I am extremely passionate about. So I am leaving on September 19th, and will begin a new job on October 1st. I can not begin to express the relief that this change brings me!
Now that my personal life seems to be more in control, I am going to start blogging, Face booking, and tweeting again! I have missed the community that I had built. I am eager to get back to blogging about my workouts, sharing my meals with you, and fostering the relationships that I have built.
In the mean time, catch me up. What have I missed in your life?